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Poems
/ Stories
by Makueeyapee Delene Whitford
Blackfeet
 1.
Relationship
2. Education
3. Legal
4. Internet Access
1. Interests / Looking for:
Every day I watch time go by, and as the days pass I think
about the past
events In my life, as much as I think about what the future
holds, but in reality
all that really matters is the present. And at this moment
in time I'm locked
behind bars wishing I could be holding that woman that haunts
my every
dream and invades my every thought. Lonelyness surrounds me
and deep
inside my heart I desire the love of a woman that does not
yet exist. So I sit
here and write these words in search of love and relationship.
Anyway let me
explain what I'm into and what I'm not into, so that those
of you who decide
to write will have an idea of what kind of individual I am.
I am into long term
relationships because I like to be able to look below the
surface where the
beauty is and the key to love opens up doors. And I am into
responsible
women because responsibility shows that a women can keep it
real. I am also
into women who ain't affraid to speak their mind and have
confidence in
themselves because it shows that they have a strong personality.
I'm not into
women who say that they are going to do something and then
take forever to
do it, or forget to do it, or make excuses to justify why
they couldn't do it
because it shows a lack of responsibility. I'm not into women
who are affraid
to face problems because in every relationship there are problems
and in
order to have a successful relationship communication between
one another is
needed, and communication is how one establishes boundries.
And I'm not
into women younger than 21 because in my experiences women
younger than
me seem to take everything for granted. And I'm not into women
who don't
take care of themselves because that also shows lack of responsibility.
As for
myself. I am in prison for robbery in the first degree. Before
I got locked up
(in 1998) I was ignorant and stupid because I took everything
for granted, but
since than I have had a lot of time to think, and in retrospect
I don't regret any
mistakes that I have made because I wouldn't be the same person
today
without them. Nowdays I'm diffrent because I understand and
respect more
and continue to learn what life is about. Besides that I consider
myself to be a
fun-loving, respectable, and at the right time compassionate
kind of guy with a
unique perspective about life. Here are some questions I would
like to answer
if you deside to write me. Remember that I am going to hold
you to what up
say.
A) Why have you desided to write me?
B) What have you experianced in the past, what is going on
in your life in the
present, and what would you like to acomplish in the future?
C) Is there any subject aou don't feel comfortable talking
about (for example;
sex, past, relationships, family, etc.) or are you comfortable
talking about
anything? Note: If there is something you don't feel comfortable
talking about
now, but wouldn't mind talking about later, let me know so
that I know its ok
to bring up later.
D) What are you into, what are you not into, and what would
you like out of a
relationship?
E) What do you enjoy in a man, and what would you do for a
man you
enjoy?
F) What can a man do to make you happy?
2. Education
I believe one of the most important things in a persons life
is education, and
the ability for an individual to learn from lifes many lessons.
That's how come I
am always trying to learn more by reading and studing. I have
made the
choice to devote my life to learning. Let me explain what
I wish to accomplish
in my life, but remember that I also understand that it is
easyer said than done.
First, I want to get my paralegal degree so that I can understand
the law. If
possible I want to accomplish this before I get out of prison.
Second, I want
to get a degree in Real estate so that I can have a good income.
Third, I want
to get a degree in the Blackfeet language and Blackfeed studies.
Fourth, I
want to go into Native American studies. Fifth, I want to
write books about
my life experiances, about diffrent subjects, and books to
help people. I also
want to help start organizations that will help people. (For
example, an
organization designed to help people pay for their education,
or an
organization to help prisoners in prison, or to help feed
and house poor
people, etc. etc. etc.) I believe there are so many ways that
one can do to
help make the world a better place. Some people may wonder
why I feel this
way. The reason I feel the way I do, is because I what it
is like to have
nothing and no one, and the more I can give to others the
better it makes me
feel. I want others to have a chance because I never did.
Anyway I am having trouble because I don't have the money
to pay for my
paralegal degree which costs $750. Although I wont give up.
I plan on
working a prison job and saving my money to pay for it. But
it will be hard
and I will have to sacrifice even some of the most essential
things because a
job in prison is not only hard to get because of population
problems but also
because a job in prison only pays $55 a month for most of
us. That's how
come I'm asking for help to pay for my education. I would
like to point out
that no matter what I will get the money for my education,
even if no one
helps and I have to pay for it through hard work. Because
I'm determined to
succeed. And if I can I might be able to work something out
so that those
who wish to help can pay directly to the college or school
that I'm trying to go
to, so they will know where their money is going and I could
also give those
who wish to help a copy of my certificate once I graduate.
Anyone who
wishes to help please contact me so that we can talk. Thank
you.
3. Legal
I am currently studing the law both civil and criminal on
my own, by going to
the lay library and reading what material they have. I am
trying to learn as
much as I can about the law so that I can help other prisoners
and myself. But
just recently I guess the Washington State Legislature passed
a Bill saying that
they are going to take the Law Libraries out of the prisons,
so I need help in
obtaining books, case cites, legal publications, and other
legal materials
because I don't have the money to do it myself. I need also
someone who I
would be able to keep in contact with incase I have trouble
understanding
something, or who would be able look up and copy information
for me since
we wont be having Law Libraries for much longer. I'm not sure
when they
plan on doing this or how they expect us to handle our cases,
but I figure that
this is the best way to prepare myself.
4. Internet Access
I am looking for someone that can help provide me with Internet
access.
I always find myself wishing I could look up certain information
that crosses
my mind or sometimes I'll see an interesting web site but
I can't look it up
because I don't have anyone on the outside that can help me.
So if you could help, please contact me. Thank you.
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